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life has been good. spring break has passed, and i'm back on campus. still sick with something and i have been for the past week and a half, but it be like that. i just tie-dyed something and i'm waiting for it to sit before i wash it. i'm very excited to have another pair of rainbow pants :) that's all.
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happy march!!!
yesterday I had a meeting with one of my advisors and it went ok. it went well. she was receptive to my problems because I am right and I am always right when it comes to people fucking up. If it's done wrong it's obvious. And everything has been wrong. I want to talk to my academic advisor because I feel like my life is going to explode or something if I don't do anything about it. So now I'm sitting in the chapel writing my diary entry. This dude I don't like is sitting across from me and I don't like him because he's the type of person to smack my shit for shits and gigs. I'm wearing headphones right now and he's just the type of person to rip them off my head if I tried to converse with him; he's also the fiance of one of my enemies. But that's fine.
School has been ok. I like my friends I think, except the one that I told her to meet me in the chapel so I could help her on her homework but no she just has to go for a walk and has to - omfg mr. fiance just coughed hella loud - has to hang out with her roommate (my friend too) at all times; they never invite me anywhere, they never talk to me except when we cross paths, and it's bad of me but I want to tickle them until they apologize. it would just be nice to tickle them. anyway I told her to meet me in the chapel and she texts me an hour and a half after I told her the time (two hours after I said "i'd text you after lunch") and she just HAD to go on a walk and HAD to find some stupid shit in the woods and just HAD to bring it back to her dorm so she'll be in the chapel "before dinner" - yeah, whatever, I don't even care anymore. TS pisses me off. Instead of doing my homework, I'm writing this diary entry. But I should get back to doing my homework. Yay...
yesterday I had a meeting with one of my advisors and it went ok. it went well. she was receptive to my problems because I am right and I am always right when it comes to people fucking up. If it's done wrong it's obvious. And everything has been wrong. I want to talk to my academic advisor because I feel like my life is going to explode or something if I don't do anything about it. So now I'm sitting in the chapel writing my diary entry. This dude I don't like is sitting across from me and I don't like him because he's the type of person to smack my shit for shits and gigs. I'm wearing headphones right now and he's just the type of person to rip them off my head if I tried to converse with him; he's also the fiance of one of my enemies. But that's fine.
School has been ok. I like my friends I think, except the one that I told her to meet me in the chapel so I could help her on her homework but no she just has to go for a walk and has to - omfg mr. fiance just coughed hella loud - has to hang out with her roommate (my friend too) at all times; they never invite me anywhere, they never talk to me except when we cross paths, and it's bad of me but I want to tickle them until they apologize. it would just be nice to tickle them. anyway I told her to meet me in the chapel and she texts me an hour and a half after I told her the time (two hours after I said "i'd text you after lunch") and she just HAD to go on a walk and HAD to find some stupid shit in the woods and just HAD to bring it back to her dorm so she'll be in the chapel "before dinner" - yeah, whatever, I don't even care anymore. TS pisses me off. Instead of doing my homework, I'm writing this diary entry. But I should get back to doing my homework. Yay...
circle_birclelet it be known in writing: i am a piece of shit!
i am in a battle with the fashion club because they are arguably lesser pieces of shit, but i don't particularly care. spirit week has never been done at my college. i want to start it. i printed out flyers and put them everywhere and now the student programming board and fashion club is on my ass. because they think that i cannot be pettier, i spose. but they don't have meetings and whatever leadership they have don't know how petty i can be. i want them to look me dead in the eye and tell me what the fuck a "disco honky-tonk" is. fuck you. and fuck yall. i'm going to be an even more massive piece of shit!
i am in a battle with the fashion club because they are arguably lesser pieces of shit, but i don't particularly care. spirit week has never been done at my college. i want to start it. i printed out flyers and put them everywhere and now the student programming board and fashion club is on my ass. because they think that i cannot be pettier, i spose. but they don't have meetings and whatever leadership they have don't know how petty i can be. i want them to look me dead in the eye and tell me what the fuck a "disco honky-tonk" is. fuck you. and fuck yall. i'm going to be an even more massive piece of shit!
circle_birclei'm someone's BOTTOM BITCH! and daniel is a BOTTOM BITCH to everyone else! why am I sitting in the library where they're playing shit from a laptop speaker? IN A LIBRARY? why the hell am I forced to listen to the tinkerbell pirate soundtrack? tom hiddleston (sp?) isn't even that hot. but i'm going hiking this weekend so yay!
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god forbid i go to college to get more knowledge!! god forbid i ask questions! god forbid i am just sooo inquisitive and want to know more about people's perspectives and want to know why they want to do that! god forbid i don't understand something!!! god forbid i have an open mind and want to learn more!! :/
circle_bircleim back at college but i just have so much to do. i don't like reading and i don't like english but i'm in too deep anyway. i don't know what i want to do with my degree but whatever ill be able to get a job. but one of my clubs is putting on events and stuff and im tasked with one and I don't even want to do it I don't want to be there but I have to be there but I don't want to be there. And I just got told that my work sucks basically and im the only one pulling my weight for this stupid event. i just need to sit down and do everything
circle_birclehappy (belated) new year!
this year, there will be things that happen. idk what, but maybe i'll find my ECVM? maybe new things will open up? perhaps... i will even make another friend! i miss all my friends very much, but i'm not stoked to go back to college because i'm pretty sure i have bed bugs in my dorm so yucky!!! i don't know what to do to fix the problem, so... but that's ok. that's a problem for me in the future. also fuck my suitemates yall are NASTY
this year, there will be things that happen. idk what, but maybe i'll find my ECVM? maybe new things will open up? perhaps... i will even make another friend! i miss all my friends very much, but i'm not stoked to go back to college because i'm pretty sure i have bed bugs in my dorm so yucky!!! i don't know what to do to fix the problem, so... but that's ok. that's a problem for me in the future. also fuck my suitemates yall are NASTY
circle_birclemerry christmas!
yesterday i went to church. because my job is at a church. and it was nice to sing the best three songs: we three kings, silent night, and the BEST one is joy to the world. away in a manger is okay too but it's not in the top 3: aka, the only ones that get sang often. well, "go tell it on the mountain" might be up there for us appalachians...
but i'm not christian! so no christmas day. instead tonight is ironically the first night of hanukkah. and i don't get any presents that time either. so whenever kids be getting presents like lego sets and ps5s i'm only a little (VERY) envious. where's that money come from in 2024 guys?
but i bought my friend a christmas present. it was a game about andrew jackson and... quincy adams? i don't know, but she's a history junkie so i hope she'll like playing it with me and others :)
yesterday i went to church. because my job is at a church. and it was nice to sing the best three songs: we three kings, silent night, and the BEST one is joy to the world. away in a manger is okay too but it's not in the top 3: aka, the only ones that get sang often. well, "go tell it on the mountain" might be up there for us appalachians...
but i'm not christian! so no christmas day. instead tonight is ironically the first night of hanukkah. and i don't get any presents that time either. so whenever kids be getting presents like lego sets and ps5s i'm only a little (VERY) envious. where's that money come from in 2024 guys?
but i bought my friend a christmas present. it was a game about andrew jackson and... quincy adams? i don't know, but she's a history junkie so i hope she'll like playing it with me and others :)
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man work has been so stupid lately.
the coworkers i didn't like got fired but the favoritism is so obnoxious! i had like 12 kids today so not bad (my max is 18 for this grade) but one of the other grades has anywhere between 27-32 on a normal day. there are two teachers for that grade. ONE of those teachers loves to skip that job to play hooky with our boss doing errands for her instead of, you know, helping the other teacher watch over 2 dozen kids!!! and it pisses me off. and then our boss has the audacity to complain about ratio b-buh, i need a teacher up here to help me!!! like i get our boss is out because of surgery and PT but gosh. i am so excited for her to be back. apparently i have an evaluation soon and I'm sooo nervous. hopefully everything will be okay!!!
the coworkers i didn't like got fired but the favoritism is so obnoxious! i had like 12 kids today so not bad (my max is 18 for this grade) but one of the other grades has anywhere between 27-32 on a normal day. there are two teachers for that grade. ONE of those teachers loves to skip that job to play hooky with our boss doing errands for her instead of, you know, helping the other teacher watch over 2 dozen kids!!! and it pisses me off. and then our boss has the audacity to complain about ratio b-buh, i need a teacher up here to help me!!! like i get our boss is out because of surgery and PT but gosh. i am so excited for her to be back. apparently i have an evaluation soon and I'm sooo nervous. hopefully everything will be okay!!!
circle_bircleyeah, I am petty enough to write about ts in my diary five minutes afterwards. I don't care!!!
I've been changing the group chat name a lot because this is a bit about how I'm going to change the name to something really stupid (the og name was "stinky butts" but I think we can go better, and it's only like two people chat in that group chat anyway so honestly no big) but I get told that it feels like it's having an "identity crisis" and to "stop" but no, I don't think I will, because I am able to be kicked out of the group chat but also kick other people out of it so honestly I don't particularly care either way. I'm one of the only two people that use the group chat and it's largely used only to say "going to dinner!" so I don't really care.
Also, I hope the person this is about is reading this: I don't particularly want to be your friend anymore because you're always mean to me whenever I'm around you, and also you never ask to hang out with me, so why would I humor being friends with someone who A) is mean, B) is immature enough to complain about a group chat name (instead of leaving it), and C), back on topic, not putting in the effort a friendship should have to maintain a friendship? Especially if you're being mean. Your birthday is coming up and I don't particularly feel like throwing anything for you because you've been so mean to me, but I have to because you threw me a party (even though it feels like you don't know the first thing about me anymore).
What would you do if I said it to your face? What if I came to you with evidence of every instance? Because last year when you were saying that I was always talking to people out in public that you didn't want to, it's explicitly not true: when have I ever done that? And when I asked you to name an instance, you were all like, "never mind" because I wouldn't willingly do that unless it was someone I was friends with. And then, why would you give a damn? You're just my friend, not the one doing the talking.
Whatever. Tonight is a nice night, and I ate with people I enjoy, and that is explicitly not you nowadays. So poop on you!
(inb4 you think "poop? really? how immature can you be?")
I've been changing the group chat name a lot because this is a bit about how I'm going to change the name to something really stupid (the og name was "stinky butts" but I think we can go better, and it's only like two people chat in that group chat anyway so honestly no big) but I get told that it feels like it's having an "identity crisis" and to "stop" but no, I don't think I will, because I am able to be kicked out of the group chat but also kick other people out of it so honestly I don't particularly care either way. I'm one of the only two people that use the group chat and it's largely used only to say "going to dinner!" so I don't really care.
Also, I hope the person this is about is reading this: I don't particularly want to be your friend anymore because you're always mean to me whenever I'm around you, and also you never ask to hang out with me, so why would I humor being friends with someone who A) is mean, B) is immature enough to complain about a group chat name (instead of leaving it), and C), back on topic, not putting in the effort a friendship should have to maintain a friendship? Especially if you're being mean. Your birthday is coming up and I don't particularly feel like throwing anything for you because you've been so mean to me, but I have to because you threw me a party (even though it feels like you don't know the first thing about me anymore).
What would you do if I said it to your face? What if I came to you with evidence of every instance? Because last year when you were saying that I was always talking to people out in public that you didn't want to, it's explicitly not true: when have I ever done that? And when I asked you to name an instance, you were all like, "never mind" because I wouldn't willingly do that unless it was someone I was friends with. And then, why would you give a damn? You're just my friend, not the one doing the talking.
Whatever. Tonight is a nice night, and I ate with people I enjoy, and that is explicitly not you nowadays. So poop on you!
(inb4 you think "poop? really? how immature can you be?")
circle_bircle today i am wearing my cool new shirt and if it gets insulted i might cry. but castlevania is a lot easier to explain than xenogears. i just need to tell my acquaintance that she's ugly today or something I don't know. but i got paid today and i might walk to a new coffee shop and try it. I'm not sure...
circle_bircle i dont particularly like halloween because my friends all dress up without me and I'm too old to participate and trunk or treats are for kids and kids only. my acquaintance who i wanted to dress up with last year cancelled last minute to go hang out with her boyfriend, but figures because all she wanted to be was a zumba instructor :/. this year she wore a dress so of course she made a post about it without me, you know? But whatever. I'm sick of Halloween and I'm happy it's over. Me and Gregory went to go take pictures because we're smurfs. But whatever.
10/23/2024
Oct. 23rd, 2024 11:33 amcircle_bircleWOOOO homecoming week! apparently. i had two tests today and I think I was supposed to have an exam on Friday but I don't think I am, so. Life is OK. I give the coffee people a mole name and now they know me by the mole name so that's nice. And like, it's not a bad name or anything but it is a name of my friend so I don't really know how that makes me feel. But because I am named something that is hard to say, my friend lets me borrow her name because it is a GN name and also a popular, easily spellable name. So I can pretty much go by that in a sticky situation.
But this week is homecoming week where a bunch of old farts come back. As someone who is on the programming board for some of this stuff, I am in charge of smiling very nicely occasionally and going, "do you want a T-shirt?". The T-shirts we are selling this year look very very bad, actually, because they were made by AI and I don't like them very much. But they are long-sleeved, so I might just order a size up and use it as a jammie shirt. Today we are going to go to a corn maze because we bought tickets for the student population and we're all going to go maze a corn, I suppose. I don't really know what all is involved in that, but that's okay, because I'm there from 6 pm to 9 pm and probably a little bit after to clean up or something like that. It's a haunted corn maze though, so maybe I'll update tomorrow if I was spooked or not! We shall see.
All right, I'm going to go write something now. Or not. Maybe I'll just play on my computer for a little bit, I'm not sure. Someone just yelled, "OOOOOH, YOU'RE SO FUCKING NASTY! YOU'RE DISGUSTING AS FUCK!" but it was a really jokey sort of manner so I'm not sure what's what. And now, my two favorite English majors are going to lunch! They are very very cool, and very very smart. I wish I could be as smart as then, but I totally flunked the test I had today in the class we're all in.
Oh, no. I see my professor from said English class walking this way. Now I can't look up, because I don't want to make eye contact with him. If I make eye contact with him, the world might implode. Well, it won't, but I don't have anything to say besides, "sorry I failed the essay, and also the test that you gave me today." Because I don't think I failed either of them, okay, well, he's just walking at a brisk pace towards the dining hall. I think I'm okay now! Or, at least, he's not looking at me so it's okay.
Okay, done looking busy. Now I shall depart. Later, gator!
But this week is homecoming week where a bunch of old farts come back. As someone who is on the programming board for some of this stuff, I am in charge of smiling very nicely occasionally and going, "do you want a T-shirt?". The T-shirts we are selling this year look very very bad, actually, because they were made by AI and I don't like them very much. But they are long-sleeved, so I might just order a size up and use it as a jammie shirt. Today we are going to go to a corn maze because we bought tickets for the student population and we're all going to go maze a corn, I suppose. I don't really know what all is involved in that, but that's okay, because I'm there from 6 pm to 9 pm and probably a little bit after to clean up or something like that. It's a haunted corn maze though, so maybe I'll update tomorrow if I was spooked or not! We shall see.
All right, I'm going to go write something now. Or not. Maybe I'll just play on my computer for a little bit, I'm not sure. Someone just yelled, "OOOOOH, YOU'RE SO FUCKING NASTY! YOU'RE DISGUSTING AS FUCK!" but it was a really jokey sort of manner so I'm not sure what's what. And now, my two favorite English majors are going to lunch! They are very very cool, and very very smart. I wish I could be as smart as then, but I totally flunked the test I had today in the class we're all in.
Oh, no. I see my professor from said English class walking this way. Now I can't look up, because I don't want to make eye contact with him. If I make eye contact with him, the world might implode. Well, it won't, but I don't have anything to say besides, "sorry I failed the essay, and also the test that you gave me today." Because I don't think I failed either of them, okay, well, he's just walking at a brisk pace towards the dining hall. I think I'm okay now! Or, at least, he's not looking at me so it's okay.
Okay, done looking busy. Now I shall depart. Later, gator!
circle_bircle yesterday i was wearing my xenogears shirt and my shit acquaintance asked "oh did you get that thrifted?" and she like made a face and she was like "what does that mean" referring to the quote and it just hurt my feelings because i liked that shirt because it was so goofy but :( i guess it wasn't that cool after all. hopefully today will be a better day
circle_bircle man i hate my friends. only one of them is being kind to me and you know what hurts? ive never had a significant other but one of my acquaintances is rebounding and im in third place. which is kind of funny because he's mid and we're not even friends. it's just the point of it all. sigh.
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TOMORROW IS GREGORY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE'RE GOING TO HAVE A SPLENDORIFIC DAY EVEN IF ALL THE SHITHEADS AT COLLEGE WENT HOME FOR LABOR DAY WEEKEND. I DON'T CARE!!!! I'M GOING TO MAKE HIS BIRTHDAY AMAZING EVEN IF I'M THE ONLY PERSON THAT HANGS OUT WITH HIM!!!! GRRRAAAAAAAAGH!!!!!!!!!
WE'RE GOING TO HAVE A SPLENDORIFIC DAY EVEN IF ALL THE SHITHEADS AT COLLEGE WENT HOME FOR LABOR DAY WEEKEND. I DON'T CARE!!!! I'M GOING TO MAKE HIS BIRTHDAY AMAZING EVEN IF I'M THE ONLY PERSON THAT HANGS OUT WITH HIM!!!! GRRRAAAAAAAAGH!!!!!!!!!
